Jane of all trades

Lover of life. Enjoy coffee and good conversation. Some people say I am funny. Sometimes talk too much. willing to try new things, though this is a new characteristic discovered recently.

Monday, September 20, 2010

No words!

Well Pastor Bryan has been reading my journal again. The series God gave him for the last few weeks has messed me up.
I do believe in God, I believe Jesus died and rose again for our sin but do I live like Jesus is with me always...probably not.

I was reminded a couple weeks ago how blessed I felt to purchase a home we could afford. I was so happy and thankful God saw us worthy enough to open up yet another door of blessings on us.

I remember searching and searching for a home of our own that we would not have to struggle with the payment, getting a fixed mortgage, and it had to be within 8 miles of Burgaw with 4 bedrooms and two baths. I did not realize four bedrooms were so rare and so much more than a house with three. so after searching for months and looking at at least 20 homes this one came up. It has 4 bedrooms and two baths. It was well within our price range and we jumped on it.

I remember preparing the house for our stuff and praising and thanking God for all He had done for us. I remember singing loud and strong of the glory of the blessing bestowed upon our family. I remember cleaning and praying over every room as we prepared to be home owners. God has truly blessed us.

Recently I have been wanting more. I have become unsatisfied with the blessing God gave our family and have been envious of other peoples things. Wishing I had a garage, patio, french doors, bigger and better everything. I felt not only did I want an upgrade but that I deserved it. After all I have worked hard...well pastors sermon spoke to me. I was no longer happy with what God had blessed me with and not so long ago was singing praises for it.
I quickly repented for being so selfish. I thanked God for the blessings in my home. My children are healthy, My husband is a hard worker and he is faithful to me. I found work that I totally enjoy, of course with Gods help. He is still blessing me.

I have the washer and dryer I wanted and God provided a way for me to get them. This house...God too. My children...God's, Everything I have is His. I have never worried about money (too much because) God provides and I am a good steward with what He has given me. Because of this new position I am able to continue to work with FlipSide youth and Pastor Matthew, as well as take my son to C.A.P. and continue the small group I started.

Thank You God for blessing me, Thank you for all the things you have given to me. You are wonderful and marvelous and worthy to be praised. I lift my hands and worship you awesome God.

10 Things I am grateful for...

1. A forgiving God who gave His only son to save me.
2. A visionary God who created the entire universe just so He could spend time with me.
3. A giving God who gave us free will so we could choose to love Him because He loves us so much
4. A loving God who wants us to have our true hearts desire and determines what is best for us.
5. A God who lets us make mistakes and holds His arms out when we fall and come running back.
6. A God who knows what is best even when we can't understand.
7. A God who loves us so much He will never leave us nor forsake us.
8. A God who knows my heart even when I am angry, hurt, or upset.
9. A God who gave us all the answers and we still don't listen
10 An all forgiving all knowing God whom we can not hide from.
So turn around and run back to him. He still loves you. He is still waiting for you.

Saturday, February 20, 2010


Change is a good thing, Sometimes things change due to circumstances beyond our control. Sometimes we are resistant to it, but change is inevitable. Our lives go through so many changes that we hardly notice and other times change forces us to do things we were not aware we could.I like change. It means we are growing.

Okay, so what is changing now?

My employment status.

I find I have to leave a job that I have grown to like very much. This job has been an experience I will always be grateful for. I have learned so much about myself. I have been stretched. I have overcome fears, learned a lot of new skills and found that my ability to solve problems and "Get er done" is a amazing quality. I did not always enjoy the work but mostly enjoyed the challenges.

I have also come to know things come in seasons and I was able to fill a need for a season. The season I just came out of can only be described as spring. I bloomed and blossomed and had a few things pruned. All for the better and now I am entering summer. Taking all that helped me grow and am now basking in the sun. I have peace and joy in my life like never before. Not because of where I worked but because of the people I had the privilege to work with.

Pastor Brian took a chance on me. He saw something in me I was not able to see. I have to believe that, other wise I would not have been given the opportunity in the first place. I felt totally unworthy. I said what the heck I'll try it, if you think I can then maybe I can.

I did! I did it well. 50,000 sq ft. and twelve acres. Massive I know, a little intimidating...? sure, impossible?, No. Staying organized and lots of to do lists and en extra pair of eyes helped me get things done. 35 Volunteers helped too.

So now I have the daunting task of finding employment again. I have already filled out three applications and drew up a new resume. I am positive that whatever happens will be for the best. God has this, and I am at peace about the whole thing.

Friday, January 1, 2010


Well a new year started today and I had a peaceful day of quiet reflection.

2009 was a year of new beginnings. Our church was called to fast and we will be fasting again this year. I found while fasting prayer is more intimate. God is always there but when we fast He seems closer. Being a Mom, maintenance super, and wife quiet time with God is very important to me.

I have embarked on a new journey. Studying and preparing myself for the new small group starting up again this month.
We will be teaching creation using Ken Ham's 12 DVDs. We will cover topics like " Was the world created in 6 days and why it is important, If Adam and Eve were the only two people created then who was Cain's wife?, Where there really dinosaurs and what happened to them...We are very excited to be called to teach on this subject.
We give all the credit to the creation scientists for doing all the work and allowing us to use it to further the education of people in our community.

Life lessons this year include "think before you speak, Pray while you are thinking, pray some more then do not speak. Meditate on what God has shown you, speak to your pastor, then speak. Not everyone thinks first, and sometimes people give God credit for things He has nothing to do with.

I am sure God would never tell you anything contrary to His word. If you are thinking of dating a guy...lets say who has recently left his wife(or at least that is what he told you) He is still married. Leave it alone. God has better for you.
If you meet a guy on the Internet and you do not really know him...Use your head, he can tell you whatever he wants to on the computer, or phone. All you know is what he has told you. Find out who he is before you start planning your life with him. He could be Married, he could be a rapist or he could just be a lonely guy not looking for anything but....Well you get the picture. He can say or be anything he wants. God has better for you.
If you had to lie for any reason to get what you thought God wanted you to have, stop it. If it was of God you would not have to lie. God has better for you.

People are not always what they seem. A lot of good people get used and did not know it was happening until the user was long gone.
We have to reflect, forgive, thank God for the learning experience and keep moving forward.
I do not sit here pretending to have all the answers. I am just a lowly human just like you with flaws and sin.
Only you and God know the real truth.
God never lies.
God never changes.
His word is always truth.
Yes I learned a lot this past year about the true nature of people. I need to gird myself with the armor of God and head out into the world trying not to judge, or point out others shortcomings, focus on me and mine because Gods Got it!